My Spiritual Journey

Leaving home we travel and we take a body once again. This is His caper which we enact; we are His troupe of thespians. The play is not without its framework. It is filled with spectacle and drama, comedy and tragedy. Nothing is beyond His ken! The game is afoot, this life is looming, and it all seems so real. So we traverse this existence in joy and pain of loss and gain. Each born in a province of his making, covered in our ignorance to what we truly are, not knowing we are His. We are moved by the impulsion of Time to find Truth, although we do not know what that Truth might be. It is just that the heart feels life is lacking. There is a void, an emptiness that the mundane can not relieve. Friends and family cannot assuage the profound compulsion to seek. So we accelerate in whatever direction we think will fill us. We gather people, status and things but what we need is to be empty. Empty of desire, empty of passion, empty of lust, greed and ...

KrsnaGuru teaches we are always Free. Much of my blog writings are directly from the lessons learned from my dear Guruji. The lessons are the ideal. The daily living of the lessons is not so clear and distinct. There is a vast difference between knowledge and experience. Reading, listening and even writing are knowledge-based. The “living” and “experiencing” of that knowledge is much more difficult. Can the lessons of my Guru be remembered in every moment? Can His lessons flow in my daily life?. Of course, my Dear Guruji would say that one needs to put forth Self-efforts, Faith, and Patience. Still, my path seems stagnated and I continue to wonder what is missing from my practice. Blessedly, today by His Grace an answer was given to me. The lack of flow is due to my narrow mind. On a long drive with my husband, I started to speak my conviction of God. It was in the telling that I heard the message. By holding on to my material life, I have kept myself in the narrow framework ...

KrsnaKnows teaches that thoughts, especially negative thoughts are the demons that move us away from our path. First, here is my understanding of Guruji’s lesson: There are so many thoughts, relentlessly passing through the mind. It takes practice to keep them in check. How does one practice being the controller of thoughts? Well, first one needs to pay attention to the action. Thoughts are so much a part of our existence and personality that we do not even notice them. The mind will create one thought and then lead us around until we have enough thoughts gathered to create a small story. And what is even worse is the story is not at all true, it only exists in the mind. Of course, we could actually use our thoughts in a constructive manner, but clearly those occasions are rare, particularly when one considers how many thoughts pass in the mind every minute, hour, day, week, year or lifetime. Once a thought is noticed, then one can choose to let that demon grow to huge heigh...

KrsnaKnows teaches that when you come to God or Guru with only Love and Devotion, you are irresistible to Him. Some people seek God because they want something. They have a need or wish to be fulfilled, so they pray to God and state their requests or come in person to the Guru. The benevolent Divine gives whatever one asks. He may not give it at that very moment, but somewhere in time, it has been sanctioned for that one. It’s hard to imagine that asking God or Guru, for what you think you need or know you want, could cause any issues. But if you have an understanding of karma, then you know there are three types, Sanchita, Prarabdha, and Kriyamana or Agami. By asking for something in this life, you can be adding to a treasury of karma that can influence the difficulties you may suffer in many lifetimes to come and can even keep you from obtaining liberation. If you read the ancient stories in holy books, people always asked and were given and it usually ended with them gaini...

Krsnaji teaches that one does not have to go very far to find God. The Divinity is within each of us. As seekers of Truth , we search for God outwardly far and near. Where is God to be found? One may go to church, or a temple or a park to find God, but is God there? If you were to listen to my Guruji’s satsangs online , surely you will hear a consistent mantra. Over and over, time and time again, Guruji tells us that God is within us. “God is within!” Everything that you think is God and everything that you think God is, dwells within each of us. We are unable to know God within because we are veiled by our mind and intellect and have been wrongly thinking we are just this human body. Even though I know these words, I have yet to live each day fully in that knowledge. So I ask, “What is the reason that this knowledge has not permeated the veil?” The answer is Shraddha and Suburi (Faith and Patience) . The answer is always Shraddha and Suburi. It’s Faith in my Guruji and hi...

KrsnaGuru teaches that spiritual growth will happen according to God’s timetable and not my own. What is the goal of a spiritual aspirant? Guruji teaches that a true spiritual aspirant does not come before God to ask for worldly favors. The true spiritual aspirant may seek God to gain moksha (dissolving into God), others may seek self-realization and liberation from samsara (the cycle of births and deaths). In my journey, I aspire to love God, know God in my heart and serve Him. In The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna , it is said, “Unless one has learnt to love God, one cannot realize Him.” My dear Guruji teaches the path of love and devotion (bhakti) . Nothing on the path is within my control and therein lies my pain. Much of my life’s pain has come from desire. Recently, I asked Guruji about the desire to know God, “is it still a desire that causes pain?” The answer was yes. “Desire, even toward the divine is still a desire.” In His teachings, KrsnaKnows explains that during the ...

KrsnaGuru teaches that by following the path of Love and Devotion , and by retaining our small ego, we can cry for God. For me, there is hardly a better expression of my love for the Divine . Sometimes the tears are blissful and sometimes the tears are of my deepest anguish. Separation makes me weep. Yet, seated at His feet I will still weep. The rising morning sun casts the sky in blue, pink and purple. The sky’s reflection on the lake makes me cry. God’s reflection in the world makes me cry. In the temple sanctum, a reclining Vishnu sleeps, when my eyes fall upon His feet my tears begin to fall. It is the tenderness of Divine Love that wells up in my heart and pours out of my body. From top to bottom, left to right, front to back—Love is experienced. With my heart on the Divine, melancholy plagues this body and so does elation. It hurts to feel deeply, but bliss is deep too. Union and separation are both pure Love. I have only to place my thoughts on Him. He’s here—...