You'll Be An Outcast

Krsnaji teaches following a spiritual path can quickly make one a pariah.

This is true in my life. Once this spiritual path opened, those around me quickly expressed opposition. Some expressed concern, as it was outside of the norm—some out of concern regarding my mental health, and others expressed opposition because stepping forward on my spiritual journey challenged their idea of who I am. The impetus to expand my knowledge and experience beyond the constraints of any previously held ideas had come.

God has blessed me in this lifetime that I might know and understand His infinite Love. From the depths of my being came an unrelenting drive to seek God. My search has consumed the worldly me and appears selfish to family and friends, well, because it is. The inward journey to know oneself in God is a journey traversed by that one.

As a child, my mother told me that in life, we are lucky to have one true friend, a friend for whom you would give up your own life. (My mother certainly set the bar quite high.) So, I began to search for this One—the Love for which I would be willing to give up my own life. Surprisingly, I found many for whom I felt this Love. What I had not found was the One who wanted to Love me that way. It was not until my personal experience in 2016, that the One made itself known to me. And so began this life-changing odyssey.

For sure, this spiritual journey is mine alone, yet there is a Master who guides it. It is said that when the student is ready, the Guru will appear. By His blessing and according to His plan, God has blessed my path with a teacher, a Spiritual Master, my Dear Guruji. There are no words to express my relief when I first spoke with Him! Guruji assured me with great certainty that these things happen. He understood!

There is no returning to a life where I do not know God. My journey proceeds and I cannot even conceive of the path God will unfold. To some, I am a pariah, an outcast and that’s okay. For me, God is not a part-time Love. For me, God is Supreme and encompasses all. So, yes I put God above all.

When people say I have changed, they are only partly correct. More correctly, they are now knowing more of me, as I am knowing more of myself. However, it is the same self that has always existed.

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